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My mom’s word choice CRACKS ME UP. (note, i just spoke to her like 2 days ago, and my dad one day ago, I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT SHE’s on ABOUT):

SUBJECT: ASAK

ASAK SAS,

WHATSUP?????

LET US KNOW HOW EVERYTHING IS WHEN YOU HAVE TIME BUT IN THE MEANTIME DROP US A LINE NOW AND THAN. ABU AND ME ARE WELL AND HOPE ALL IS FINE WITH YOU ALL. GIVE MY LOVE TO FATMA ND THE KIDS.

LOTS OF LOVE, AMMI
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Thats the e-mail.

Sas

For ever. We closed itdown, and wontoptn it up ever again unless it works like a charm, and (we know what we are doing)

All old users will still be able to keep the domain and use it forever of course, and we hope to bring it back within 5 years.

But it will work for all old users.

Sas

My lungs are progressively getting more and more weird, I REALLY have to see a doctor soon. and see whats going on - I went last year also, and the doctor said there was nothing unordinary going on. Of course, that leaves the question maybe its in my head or some phycological thing. But I know myself kinda, and i am pretty sure its a physical thing! I mean my capacity feels down… ‘I wanna be with You’ should be the song of the world.

Ok, for the first time in maybe 2-3 months, I took a hot shower. Can you believe i Have taken a cold shower nearly every day for almost 2-3 months? We got a gas heater, based upon my STUPID friends reccomendation. The only thing good about it is that its instant, but temperature conttol, etc. take that all out of the window. The shower starts out hot, then becomes lukewarm, then I have to make it hot again, and in the mean time I am spending more time worrying about the temperature then enjoying my shower. (Considering the only thing I actually ENJOY from the bottom of my heart is exhausted sleep, and 20 minute hot showers [which is also according to my mom the reason I will never have kids]) its not FANTASTIC.

But to be honest, its hot water, its so nice. We have hot water. Its so nice, you have no idea how nice it is. And it’s instant, and techincally I should not be taking crazy long showers so it forces to me ration my time and soap, etc. and its I guess in the end an over all good thing. (plus you can not beat the fact that a FLAME ignites when I turn the hot water side on).

I am actually starting to like this whole 3 in one coffee thing that I Drink 2-3 glasses of per day. Its not half bad.  I am a bum. I am insatibaly hungry these days. I had alarge dinner, I actually had breakfast with fruits and all sorts of stuff, and 2 hours later, I am starving so I ate my lunch which I finished 15 minutes ago, and now i amhungry again. What is GOING ON (what’s going on, teet, teet, teet).

My dad’s friend had a dream about me, that I was bothering him.

Sas

Check it out, Check it out

I wanna be with you
I wanna be with you baby
Yeah baby

I wanna be with you
I wanna be with you baby
Yeah baby

I wanna be with you, uh huh
I wanna be with you, oh yea

I wanna be with you ’cause my love is true
There’s so many things that i wanna do
I wanna be with you every night and day
Oh baby oh baby please stay

Oh yea,
ah-hh-hh

What’s up what’s wrong?
Don’t stop loving me
’cause my love is very deep
And i know what you need
What can i do to fulfill your dreams?
I wanna b with you
No matter what you do so come on
Give what i need
Hit hit i get straight with it
’cause when i see you girl
You know you make me go wicked
Back to the point and you know me be movin’
I wanna be with you ’cause
My heart is still groovin’

I wanna be with you
I wanna be with you baby
Yeah baby

I wanna be with you
I wanna be with you baby
Yeah baby

I wanna be with you, uh huh
I wanna be with you, oh yea

I wanna be with you ’cause my love is true
There’s so many things that i wanna do
I wanna be with you every night and day
Oh baby oh baby please stay

Oh yea,
ah-hh-hh

Girlie girlie tell me
What you want from me
So deep in love baby can’t you see
I wanna hear
Some lovely words from you
Come baby come
Say i wanna be with you
I wanna be with you
Say I wanna be with you
Say I wanna be with you
Say I wanna be with you

You wanna be with me girl well just come here
The love i got will be right here
I wanna make you weak in every way
’cause the love i give you walk this way

I wanna be with you
I wanna be with you baby
Yeah baby

I wanna be with you
I wanna be with you baby
Yeah baby

I wanna be with you, uh huh
I wanna be with you, oh yea

I wanna be with you ’cause my love is true
There’s so many things that i wanna do
I wanna be with you every night and day
Oh baby oh baby please stay

Oh yea,
ah-hh-hh

ah-hh-hh

Sas

You know, its like I had a love affair with Jordan before ever coming here. Most of my favoritest people inthe world are Jordanian.

I just sent an e-mail to one of the few ’scholars’ whom I really like, but hes jordanian. But on his own, maybe out of all of the scholarly people - and without ‘friendship’ being the reason (they are not fun to befriend) he simply emailed me to see how I was doing, etc.

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As-salamu alaykum akhi Sas,

Just checking with you, and how you’re doing. Are you back in the US?

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And before this e-mail:

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This is _—–. I hope you don’t mind contacting you after all this time. I just got back from a visit to Columbus Ohio and remembered the days I spent at your house. I was hoping to see you there but I was told that you even moved to Jordan.

I hope you’re doing well in Jordan. If there is anything I can make for you and your wife to make your stay in Jordan enjoyable please let me know.

hope to see you soon insha’Allah.

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I know he needs nothing from me at all, and we are quite different, I have had huge 4 hour long rebuttal style conversations with him, and there is almost no ‘friendship’ between us,but other scholars, etc. I am much closer to or have more in common with - (and from other arab countries) just suck.

I do not mind at all, but its VERY easy to find faults with scholars, since well - they are the ‘inheritors of the prophets and all’ i expect a LOT from them, so considering hes cool enough to actually be nice and just stay in touch, speaks volumes from him. He’s JORDANIAN.

Abul Layths friend yesterday that I met happens to be one of the nicest people I have met in a long time, hes Jordanian.

My best friend in the world, Abu Muhammad is jordanian.

One thing that they all have in common is they are super nice and go out of their way to make contact with you -

Muhammad dair, etc. all of these people are crazy like that.

Now granted I can not speak for everyone, but I know many more Pakistanis, many more indians, many more saudis, many more palestinians, and MANY more egyptians, and though one or two from them are like that (from my sample) - nearly EVERYONE i know who is jordanian has always been like the responses above., and they all have different opinions of me, and they all range from full blown scholars (mujtahid) to complete booze guzzling faasiqs - and they are ALL nice. Even jordanians i completey forgot about - who barely know me - when they visit jordan get my information from my mom and contact me or try to contact me.

One thing they all have in common is every jordanina I know has contacted me, they range from 17 years of age to 50+

So how come, whats so special about jordanians that they are so nice. (the ones I know).

Sas

I am SO HAPPY. (now I’ll explain the whole thing) -

When I was younger, like 12/ 13 / 14 / 15? My family was a bit concerned about me, so they made me (not that they had to push that hard, I have a hard time saying no anyway many times) volunteer at the Islamic School there, also my uncle was the principle at that time, And hes an IT person, so they had all of these very old cheap computers and they wanted me to get them running, and networked correctly, so so it was a fun exciting job. Except that the computers all needed at least one fresh component each, etc. hard-drives, etc. so it ended up being a LONG drawn out proccess. And installing, / upgrading somethings from Windows 3.1/1 to Windows 95 was not fun at all.

One of the ideas was to make me into a better person I believe, one of the hidden but not so hidden objectives. So when I get there, I find out that there is one other person is there - who is suppose to be a positive role model in my life. (To think about it, all of my best friends now were ‘chosen by my mother in a direct, or indirect way to be positive role models in my life. (yet she bought me my first pack of cigarettes, and offered to do acid with me, and has hooked me up with girls, go figure): 1. Naureen, speaking of which, her parents are coming with my parents after Hajj to spend a week in jordan, 2. Justin, 3. Jarrod, 4. Amir B, 5. Ahmed E. 6. Nader to some extent, but not as much as my mom was NOT the catalyst - ok actually before that, lets get to another point: A Grievance which everyone seems to label against me these days, I describe all of my friends as my best friend, and I always say, ‘YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND, this guy is really my best friend”

So oh yeah Abul Layths friend called me, and I met him and i was obviosly going on and on about how abul layth is my best friend (which of course he is), but, I guess I have done that a lot lately, so the people who are in my second stage of life, namely Fatima and anyone I met in Houston, and anyone I have met in Jordan, do not know about me or my friends pre-houston. So, they simply roll their eyes when I mention best friends - but, Hammam (Abul Layths friend) turned out to be a terrific guy, and I enjoyed his company a lot., and we both agree, Abul Layth would LOVE Jordan.

So, back to the story:
When I was there, this postive role influence in my life (hes older then me) tried to get me to watch porn, I had a conscious since it was an Islamic School, and he introduced me to the world of finding religious girls attractive. I do not think I had ever even considered someone in Hijab as someone who is someone you should be interested in (granted, he meant to show me what she looked like WITHOUT Hijab [she would take her hijab off after school was over] - it was not a big deal, it’s all just ironic now that I think about it - since he was there to be a POSITIVE role model in my life, if I understand correctly what was happening.

But the amazing thing was during that time, there was this cd that would play al the time there, some mix that him and his sister had of both of their favorite songs- and I remember one song a lot, I only heard it in my entire life when I Was the few weekends I Was there, and sometimes on the radio. But for 11 years - 11 years, I have tried to recall what is/was this song. And any time another simialr song would comem on or come to mind, id be happy thinking it was the one, only realizing no, its not the one.

But today, for some reason while making a cup of coffee and just sitting. IT CAME TO ME. and on a hunch, I looked it up and found it. Keep in mind, i was a kid when I liked this song, and its a very childish song that I liked a lot, nice tune, nice rythm etc. But, I have ACTIVELY been looking for this song for a long time, i sing the tune to other people trying to get them to help me locate the song, everyone ‘kinda knows it’ but no one rememebers it.

But here it is, in all of its glory:

Check it out, Check it out

I wanna be with you
I wanna be with you baby
Yeah baby

I wanna be with you
I wanna be with you baby
Yeah baby

I wanna be with you, uh huh
I wanna be with you, oh yea

I wanna be with you ’cause my love is true
There’s so many things that i wanna do
I wanna be with you every night and day
Oh baby oh baby please stay

Oh yea,
ah-hh-hh

What’s up what’s wrong?
Don’t stop loving me
’cause my love is very deep
And i know what you need
What can i do to fulfill your dreams?
I wanna b with you
No matter what you do so come on
Give what i need
Hit hit i get straight with it
’cause when i see you girl
You know you make me go wicked
Back to the point and you know me be movin’
I wanna be with you ’cause
My heart is still groovin’

I wanna be with you
I wanna be with you baby
Yeah baby

I wanna be with you
I wanna be with you baby
Yeah baby

I wanna be with you, uh huh
I wanna be with you, oh yea

I wanna be with you ’cause my love is true
There’s so many things that i wanna do
I wanna be with you every night and day
Oh baby oh baby please stay

Oh yea,
ah-hh-hh

Girlie girlie tell me
What you want from me
So deep in love baby can’t you see
I wanna hear
Some lovely words from you
Come baby come
Say i wanna be with you
I wanna be with you
Say I wanna be with you
Say I wanna be with you
Say I wanna be with you

You wanna be with me girl well just come here
The love i got will be right here
I wanna make you weak in every way
’cause the love i give you walk this way

I wanna be with you
I wanna be with you baby
Yeah baby

I wanna be with you
I wanna be with you baby
Yeah baby

I wanna be with you, uh huh
I wanna be with you, oh yea

I wanna be with you ’cause my love is true
There’s so many things that i wanna do
I wanna be with you every night and day
Oh baby oh baby please stay

Oh yea,
ah-hh-hh

ah-hh-hh

You hAVE NO IDEA how much I love this song, its the best song in the world. All songs should be sung with this beat, rythm, and word style -

THE PLACE IS FREAKING CLEAN. Shiny and nice and everything. Of course, keeping it that way is hard as anything. Already a few black smudges from shoes, etc. (IM ALWAYS tryoing to get people to take off their shoes)

I need tea, my head hurts, I can breahe (but not quite) and i have eye boogers.

Sas

And I should not have posted that link, ysterday - so sorry about that. (but if its stuck in anyones head, alhamduillaah, SUFFER [its not really suffering since its nice, it makes u work with a rythm]

Ok. THE PLACE IS MAC DADDY Clean. Spankingly clean. I got to work 4 hours late, I told yusuf to call me every half hour but i kept going back to bed, and then went to bed late. But got all of my days work done in about one hour so I (and I FEEL SO HEALTHY and so good, even though I still have some difficulty breathing).

Now, I am hungry but not starvingly hungry. And, I started finally sorting out the huge mess that IN has become:

Services that are functional but not launched are:
1. Audio
2. Quran features
3. Prayer Times
Services that are botched compltely
1. Mail
2. MuslimPad

Services that will never be spoken about unless, they are already complte:
1. The browser

I took care of many of the mail stuff today. (Besides myself and Fatima, maybe no one else uses it anyway) but we will simply learn from what did wrong and not launch / relaunch it until we have the resources to man it. So we will migrate all users to a BETTER E-mail system anyway (GMail) they will keep the IslamicNetwork.com name and all, same passwords (hopefully) and they will have all of the previous features and then some (gmail is ten thousand times better I think anyway) - and we will maintain all of our existing 5 or 6 users over there - and you will be in the hands of a better company and the mail will work like a charm in sha aAllaah. And this lets us scrap the server and forget about it for now, and not focus on it.

IslamicNetwork.com the main site by itself will also suffer a similar fate, it will just remain and nothing will be done to it at all and it will be moved to a more stable server instead of any kind of development server - and no humans will be needed to maintain it. So therefore no me, so therefore its up, and will remain up.

The Forums will simlpy remain as they are, except they wont come down randomly =)

This will all happen in the matter of the next few days, so this means that IN will just remain as it is and the major major problems will be fixed in the next few days. Then Muslimpad WHICH will cause some hard work, but it will be fixed and the few bloggers who use it can continue.

And I will take off as many moths as is needed to do what I want - and if it works, BAHM! and if not, then BAHM! (but at the end of either conclusion full time work on IN will begin in about one year).