IN Digestion

So I sort of reasoned out the reason the hot water seems to be working so well. Before, it would ONLY, and I mean ONLY be scalding hot - now, its just a bit less hotter - cause outside (and presumably the water in the tanks) is SO MUCH COLDER. That it can only get to a certain level of hotness. Thus, now I am able to enjoy a HOT WATER shower -

Sas

With every paper, I would deliver. Ok, this is it - this is hands down, the coolest song in the world - maybe. Maybe not, but right now, its def the coolest.

Something touched me deep INSIDE… the day the music died.!

Sa

Finally, things are starting to be more like it - I feel, I know, I have, I want, and I think that its actually happening - Stability is arriving in what I require stability to be. I hate certain kinds of food, I hate certain (read: most) kinds of people, and I require certain amount of ‘using’ people - without actually bolstering them away from myself. Everything is not quite going as I would have liked, but things are mac daddying themselves all over the place. Point in case: Hot Steamy Showers. I LOVE, I mean, LOVE, I MEAN LOVE Hot HOT hot boiling hot showers. Its my life, its what I have been doing since I was a child - you get in the shower, you put on the radio, and you enjoy a 20 minute hot shower, until there is no hot water left - this is how it should be and this is what it should be - it has not been. For over a year now? (is that how long I have lived in Jordan?), I have rarely, rarely, I MEAN SO FREAKING rarely had hot steaming showers, that I can literally count them off the top of my head. Which I will now do:

1. When I first moved to Jordan, (wait, lighting a ‘fag’ as one notorious person whom will remain UNMENTIONED calls them). Damn, by the way it feels so good to actually WRITE and ENJOY writing. - but besides that, when I first came to Jordan, I realized Fatima and the kids did not know (since they had not been exposed) how to use to an electrical water heating system, so they would only run it for a few minutes, and mention that the water would only get a certain warmth to it - or not last long enough - I put on the switch for like at least an hour the first time, and took a HOT HOT HOT shower which lasted a long time. That week we ran out of water, it was not to be, and I rarely indulged in such showers since. Maximum 4-5 minute showers since then.  Ah you know what, I had a long long story planned in my head (I have to get an audio blog) but alas, i am done - this is all I feel like writing. I am tired now. Good night

Sas

This will be my second of two eids spent in Jordan. I still have not figured out what to do to exactly get into the big places, and all of the people I know are just so very busy, or so not aware of whats going on (read: Backward people) that I can’t really get much oui of it. This is one of the pitfalls or not having enough friends or family around you to guide you in these ‘adult’ decisions. Yes, I am still owed an Eid.

So, besides that - I did what I can, with my limited imagination and my limited budget. First thing, I did the adult responsible thing of at least being awake one way or the other. Yesterday, I managed to spent over 20 or so hours sleeping in the last 36 hours, and managed to drag Fatima down with me - so we were at least ‘awake’ one way or the other - (we woke up around 12AM the night before) - we saw a movie to pass the time (Legends of the Fall), and made pancakes which were a real treat - as its been over YEARS since I had pancakes of any sort.  Ooh ooh, Also purchased ONE KLILOGRAM of sweets, and got 10 DVDS. (I am way to lazy to find a creative or even fun way to do anything on eed which requires time, and we do not know ANYONE to visit), yes if you guys my friends in jordan who DO READ my blog are reading this are reading this, a BIG FUCK YOU! for not doing anything to make my eid special. (this does not apply to Ammar of course, you are busy, etc.) but yes, everyone else I know in jordan who is reading my blog FUCK YOU! Eid mubarak mother fuckers!!!

Basically, I am not so sure what to do on Eid in this country, and to tired to learn how to do anything quite yet (maybe next year, I will have some kind of motivation) - but really don’t mind my sentiments - I am actually quite proud of myself, this is actually the second or third eid I have any hand in managing, and so far it seems kinda fun. I can hear everyone bustling around getting their clothes on, we will walk to the local masjid, we have some fun movies to watch - and we had PANCAKES!

And, I WILL FINALLY FINALLY get to see Scarface (never seen it before)

Sas

I was finally able to sit down and enjoy Die hard 2. I tried watching it several times only to fall asleep without it ever having turned on.

My stomach hurts SOO SOO SOO much. I have no friends who are not mean to me. Everyone offers so much advice to me. Everyone is so mean to me. I wish that they all crawl into a pina colada mix and die. Not really, but you get the drift

I am broke again, I am used to being broke. But somehow or the other, I met my in laws last night, and I met my laws the week before. In laws = fatimas parents, laws = my parents - somehow or the other on the way to Hajj, both sets of ‘laws’ were able to stop by in Jordan for a few hours and see us. We made them tea, sandwiches and brought them some stuff. They will all be back in a few weeks. I am owed an Eid.

Sas

My parents called me a few hours ago, a half hour before they will be in Jordan. Not to see me mind you! But they are going to Hajj. My dad is all prepared for pick pockets, thieves, and my mom driving him crazy (no, not really) but I think they will maintain their cool - and all will be Ok, in shaa Allaah -

But on the way back from Hajj, they are coming to Jordan for a week! Note: its BEEN A WHILE since I have seen them, if its up to me, they will come live in Jordan with me for the duration of my time here. Its just gay not to.

Note: They are bringing Maceroni and Cheese, and a Playstation 2. (its a lot easy to get PS2 games here) and its a tough schedule we put our kids through, so a video gaming station was in due order. Note: They have instruction from morning till around 8pm every day (School, Quran Tuttors, and Arabic tutors daily) so the weekend is all they have. And since I am a evil Natzi father/step - I am prone to grounding them and well since they are american kids in a muslim country, and not learning arabic quick enough for my suitability, well we got to get a play station or SOME stupid little thing that amuses children, — BUT FORGET ALL OF THAT.

Fatimas parents also decided to Make Hajj this year! Totally unkownst to both sets of parents, they both decided to make Hajj - now I will be the only person in all families who has not made hajj - HA. So they decided to make hajj - so both parents will be here and living with us for about a week. Obveiously - everyone wants to goto jerusalem, I kinda wish - no, its easier for ME, that they do not. But i dont wanna get in their way(s).

So I popped a pimple on my chest, and I smoked my first cigarette of the night, and I am off to make a wicked bayt.com replica design (functionality is already done) -

Sas

I get stressed out easily, I am stressed out - I always have ten thousand things which I have to do, which I have told people I have done, which is actually not done, nor has it even yet began. I am struggling, I NEED to, Ensure that this happens. - LONG BREAK - I was sleeping, after wathing half of Emperors New Groove, ah you know what, I lost the gatta to keep writing. So, bas, this is it. - but a quick summary.

I made Chicken, (I Cut it, I skinned it, I masalaed it up, and I cooked it) -

I also made cheese omlettes this morning, while the kids were practicing and testing their quran lesson before school today. my life kicks BUTT.

Sas