IN Digestion

Finally, things are starting to be more like it - I feel, I know, I have, I want, and I think that its actually happening - Stability is arriving in what I require stability to be. I hate certain kinds of food, I hate certain (read: most) kinds of people, and I require certain amount of ‘using’ people - without actually bolstering them away from myself. Everything is not quite going as I would have liked, but things are mac daddying themselves all over the place. Point in case: Hot Steamy Showers. I LOVE, I mean, LOVE, I MEAN LOVE Hot HOT hot boiling hot showers. Its my life, its what I have been doing since I was a child - you get in the shower, you put on the radio, and you enjoy a 20 minute hot shower, until there is no hot water left - this is how it should be and this is what it should be - it has not been. For over a year now? (is that how long I have lived in Jordan?), I have rarely, rarely, I MEAN SO FREAKING rarely had hot steaming showers, that I can literally count them off the top of my head. Which I will now do:

1. When I first moved to Jordan, (wait, lighting a ‘fag’ as one notorious person whom will remain UNMENTIONED calls them). Damn, by the way it feels so good to actually WRITE and ENJOY writing. - but besides that, when I first came to Jordan, I realized Fatima and the kids did not know (since they had not been exposed) how to use to an electrical water heating system, so they would only run it for a few minutes, and mention that the water would only get a certain warmth to it - or not last long enough - I put on the switch for like at least an hour the first time, and took a HOT HOT HOT shower which lasted a long time. That week we ran out of water, it was not to be, and I rarely indulged in such showers since. Maximum 4-5 minute showers since then.  Ah you know what, I had a long long story planned in my head (I have to get an audio blog) but alas, i am done - this is all I feel like writing. I am tired now. Good night

Sas