IN Digestion

I am not sure, I feel better all of a sudden. Yesterday, without a doubt I was troubled beyond troubles can be. I feel a bit better today, and it feels good to feel better. I still do not think I can easily fall asleep, but I am quite used to staying awake until I fall asleep. (this means I sleep every 36 hours or so) - I am ‘required’ to be in the office for the next 6 months, but they are fairly understanding that I am only productive every other day (the day I am tired, I just kinda sit there waiting for the day to end, getting small remedial tasks done) -

I actually was able to launch ONE project this month, our own company website - http://www.exotox.com/ (note: I have to ensure that the copy is edited for typos still, but this is still Jordan. Typos are the least of worries sometimes.  I am OH so cold these days. I stayed in Mafraq for two days, on 3 JDS. It was bizzarely awful, yet nice - I got a chance to kinda do what a ton of other people do every day, who have to be at work by a certain time, and take the bus AND do not live in Amman. Most people I know actually live in Zarqa, and commute to Amman every day, by bus - for many reasons - TAXIs are expensive, cars are even more doubly expensive - a car I can purchase for around 750-1200 dollars in the States, would cost around 4.5 thousand JODS (thats almost like 6 thousand dollars!) -

Well, it was nice and peaceful - After Fajr, we met my friends cousins father - who is also the resident imam at this masjid - he dropped us off to the bus station - from where we took the bus to Amman (note: 2 days ago, a bus drove off a CLIFF and 30 people died, so many mountains and hills in Jordan, scary stuff man) - so we went from the bus station, and it was FREEZING outside, I mean I had two pairs of socks on, modeled after a friend, and for the 2 days I was there, I was unable to feel my toes the entire time - I may have permanent damage! ( I doubt it) - So, I went with a HUGE Winter Coat, gloves, a Hat, a Hoodie to cover my head from my sweat shirt - waitL No, my hat was taken by Adee. I wore my hoodie sweatshirt hat on my head, and the hoodie from my winter coat. And a scarf, and I walked like a balloon and sat down in the bus. Now, the bus was kinda warm, and I felt hot, but it was so nice. I was quite miserable though, so it was nice - I got to sit in a nice long (45 minute) ride in the rain from Mafraq to Amman, and just drif in and out of sleep. (I Stayed awake the entire night to make sure I would not miss the bus to Amman), I have learned Adee is not reliable to stay awake and wake me up by a certain time if I need to get there by a certain time. I was schooled all over on a Playstation by everyone in the world who likes/;loves PS2 more then me, and I got to watch the first installment of Godfather (DAMN!, I LOVE LOVE this movie) - while eating practically nothing except Zatar, Labneh and ZEET.

I’ll be honest - I do not want to do it anymore. Nothing, NOTHING at all - When I Was younger I kinda realized I liked the life of ‘nothing’ no responsibilities, no work, no family, nothing - luckily for me, my parents have little or no expectations from me,and are already happy/proud of me and I can not seem to do much to tarnish this - (they know most everything bad I have done), so I am set there - I just need to find a way to get rid of anything else anyone else expects from me. Then I am ‘really’ retired. my extended family expects NOTHING from me, my immediate family consists of a wife and three step kids. Now, Islamically, in technical terms I am not too responsible for the kids (but I do enjoy them), and Fatima, well she’s an adult, she can take care of herself -