IN Digestion

Hadith: “He is not a believer who eats to his fill, while his neighbor is hungry.” (Tabarani)

All my life I’ve been waiting
For you to bring a fairy tale my way
Been living in a fantasy without meaning
It’s not okay I don’t feel safe

Is just the hardest thing in the world. I don’t know why I wated seven years to even BEGIN.

Kuss Ukhtuk Mr. Bush

Sas

Just today or well a few days ago, I was clearing out the junk from my computer and I found a zip file that my parents had sent from their trip to Pakistan - so I found this really cool pic of my mom (she looks perfect). And I was kinda hoping to have a cool pic of my Dad so I can put one up of each of them - So I COMPLETELY forgot as I am never actually at my desk when ever I am contacted by anyone (family) so I happened to be sitting here, getting ready for my lessons, and I hear the skype thing going. I did a quick check: Does my stomach hurt, No. Am I distressed, No. Did I already pray - yes. So I took the call and LO AND  BEHOLD! Its my dad with a really cool video shot of him to boot! So I had my pic.

Not only that, I keep forgeting each time how cool SKYPE really is, I mean i am god knows how many millions of miles away (or just thousands, WHATEVER!) - yet i can talk to my parents and see them, etc. and what not -

So here is my dad calling me on skype. I really have the coolest dad ever. Now the print screen messed it up but I ASSURE YOU, it came out just fine when I Was talking to him.

YIKES I HAVE TO GO NOW, mom pic later - but her pic is TEN times cooler than this one, even though this is COOL AS HELL.

Sas

http://www.nytimes.com/2008/02/21/nyregion/21bowery.html?pagewanted=1&ei=5124&en=780c4d5aa994e7e1&ex=1361336400&partner=permalink&exprod=permalink

Serioulsy.

Sas

Where’d you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it’s been forever,
That you’ve been gone.
Where’d you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it’s been forever,
That you’ve been gone,
Please come back home…

http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/fortminor/wheredyougo.html

I am REALLY excited, and a bit distressed - I always assumed, or knew once I retired, I’d be happy, and what not, I kinda am - 4 months - June it ends, and it’s only a few months until then, so I am fairly getting there - but like, I did not factor I guess each possible thing into it. I am kinda used to dealing with life by not really being engaged in it, its like being in a play maybe, but not life. I figured once I got to the life part of life, I would have been ready for it - but in all honesty, I do not think I want much to do with it. I mean I have no choice in the matter - I am muslim so I have to keep doing it. But, unless Allah has something else planned for me, statistically and what not - I Have about  43 YEARS left before I will statistically die. And what if I am actually healthy? I am kinda healthy about somethings, I don’t eat many greasy foods, etc. that much anymore, and I eat a lot more fruits and vegetables then I have ever done so before. But 43 years are left until I will statistically die -

That means if I am treated by Allah like the majority of others, I still have 43 years! I don’t really look forward to being alone with myself, my work, desires, and since I am retired, or whatever, I don’t really wanna just waste it at/with cofee shops, family (’technically I only have my parents, my wife, and my step kids), friends, etc.  -

25 years already was SUCH a long time, 43 years more is TOO long.

does this still work? Checking Live Writer… it looks odd - DUDE, Ok, So now, I have actually begun my retirement - obviosuly, I am missing a few details mostly a wide screen tv (though I probably have not seen anything in over a month) I Still need it for the times that I do want to watch something! For example, AINT NO WAY to watch godfather except on wide screen. But, so I am retired ALMOST, 4 months and its finalized, but its a half retirement now! Sas

Watch out!
I see you on the street and you walk on by
You make me wanna hang my head down and cry
If you gave me half a chance you’d see
My desire burning inside of me
But you choose to look the other way
I’ve had to work much harder than this
For something I want don’t try to resist me

[ Chorus: ]

Open your heart to me, baby
I hold the lock and you hold the key
Open your heart to me, darlin’
I’ll give you love if you, you turn the key
I think that you’re afraid to look in my eyes
You look a little sad boy, I wonder why
I follow you around but you can’t see
You’re too wrapped up in yourself to notice
So you choose to look the other way
Well, I’ve got something to say
Don’t try to run I can keep up with you
Nothing can stop me from trying, you’ve got to

[ chorus ]

Open your heart with the key
One is such a lonely number
Ah, ah, ah, ah
Open your heart, I’ll make you love me
It’s not that hard, if you just turn the key
Don’t try to run I can keep up with you
Nothing can stop me from trying, you’ve got to

[ chorus ]

Open your heart with the key
Open your heart, I’ll make you love me
It’s not that hard, if you just turn the key
[ repeat and fade ]