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I went to my first, after maybe four years, actual, ‘dars’ Of course it was all in arabic, and I only understood half of it, but, it was SO freaking awesome. I shy away from any kind of learning as I just do not want any part in it right now, but MY GOODNESS, it was so SO so SO wicked. I am so going to give a fatwa one day

Sas

Ok, I have to password protect this post, so I am not sure how to do this - basically, the password has to be something that EVERYONE should know - ah forget it, no need to password protect this, but I do not want my mom in turn getting mad, telling my dad who in turn will also get mad and thus both of them will be mad at me.

So, maybe if i talk in a ‘lofty’ way - it will appear as if its not understood, or it WILL be, but I will not be in trouble -

Actually, my stomach feels kinda queezy so that is the end of of this post I guess, so im all done!

Sas

The thing of it is, I intend to do ‘great’ minutes of work each day, mainly finishing a small task here and there, and I never get to it, yet each day I copy snippets off for further work -

BUT WHO CARES! I am so SO happy, I worked two days on time, possibly for the first time in my life EVER. Its fun, its easy, just pretend to go to sleep at a certain time, and pretend to wake up at a certain time!

This is a pre-itinerary message, but I do think I will actually start my life now, maybe -, maybe - (retirement, etc. whatever you want to call it). lol at the spelling correction, I just chose a WHOLE different word, but its all in fun -

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I have like so so so much eye gook all of the time now. I am LITERALLY starving, all of the water problems are still not quite solved! This water issue is going to be the end of me, I had a dream about it last night, oddly enough, I also dreamed a really bizzaro dream about Mr. Basil Gohar, (www.basilgohar.com)

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Ok, so, I Have some super good news, more to come on that next year! (for ANY SICK person who thinks I am having a kid, no I am not, and I NEVER EVER WILL (In shaa Allah).

Sas

OK, so I am SO so So So proud of myself, probably for the first time in ‘ever’ I went/forced myself to bed around 11, each night I fell asleep around 12, or 1 however - the first day was perfect, the second day was not, but I actually made it to work and got work done, and got in some time to meet up with peoples.

I had some weird WEIRD dreams though, you ever feel like one thing is missing and makes everything totally oddly uncomplete?

Sas

My fingers are cold, the weather is nice, we had our water system fixed once and for all hopefully. It cost us an Arm and a Leg (figuratively speaking) we paid American prices to a Jordanian Contractor - unheard of, but he asked for high prices are I was happy to oblige (even though I HAVE  NO ADDITIONAL money) - we just wanted to be able to mix the scalding hot water, with the freezing water to take a ‘real’ shower. I took a shower right then and there to test it, and the kids took one the next day, -

Of course, since this is Jordan, and there was a snow storm or maybe just because this is Jordan, unfortunately the water had JUST finished right after it was fixed, - you should always ensure you have your water quota for the week before embarking upon laundry, and showers, etc.

But bottom line, at least it works! Next week, hopefully EVERYONE can have a nice hot steaming shower and feel good because OF COURSE the source of all good feelings is a nice hot shower (again, according to some people the reason, I can not will not and shall not ever have kids).

But, we have HOT HOT Showers, that can last 10 minutes! Time to use soap AND shampoo AND conditioner.

Now, My stomach hurts, but its ok, I accomplished a miracle last night. I decided at any cost, I will sleep at 12 AM - now, I did not actually finalize it until 1 am, after tea, smokes, and a little chit chat - but again, I Was in bed by 1 AM. For the first time in maybe 3 years, I WOKE someone else up for Fajr. Then I set my alarm for 7:30, (to get to work at my boss was over last night for dinner, and i promised I WOULD try to be in by 8 - He had to personally compensate me for over 20% of my salary last month because of all of my deductions because of being late. So I was so happy to wake up and what not

However, I DID NOT IN NO WAY, wake up at 7:30 somehow the alarm went over my head, and I woke up at 9;04

Somehow, i was able to eat breakfast, shower, and make it to work by 9:30 about 1/3 of the time it normally takes.

Coming to work at 9:30, its my best time all month! Except one night where I slept over -

Sas

I must say, that its alwyas incredibly shocking when I disciver and remember that some people (especially scholars and daees, lets not even go there) that are just increidbly incredibly incredibly well hearted towards Islam, Muslims and are just plain nice -

And I, myself, step on so many toes its not even funny, apparently, I always find a way to be totally incosiderate to everyone and all of their possessions and feelings (not intentionally, i am just honestly very absent minded, and opinionated, and feel that amongst family, all can be said and done (after all, as muslims we are all family) - so I have been in this position to judge others after having been very rude, and bad and incosderate to them - yet some people still just kick so MUCH butt - that nothing even when they have every right to be not as nice as they are, still choose to be this nice.

Upon furhter thinking, I think most of the people I know are pretty much like that, but its nice to see it happen RIGHT in front of you, or to you -

So KUDOS to Ahmed big time.

Sas

Today, the third of three times in my life - a Jinn tried to harm me in some way shape or form. So I was sitting there in the car, and my body went a bit numb - and I felt unable to move - I Wasn’t sure at this point what was happening, so I figured the worse, and made istaghfar, and was about to recite the shahada -

Then, a rope was pulled over my head, and i was gagged very tightly. But the jinn sucked at it and I was able to come loose from it -

I was slowly able to move again, and right then - Ammar came back, and he had brought Felafal sandwiches! - I have not had them in like weeks, etc. -

And as soon as Ammar came, the Jinn ran away on the spot.

One of these days, I am going to talk to this one that is always creeping up on me -

Sas

It seems the more work I do, or the lesser work I do - I find a way not to be able to sleep - at all. I had it all worked out, I had one hours worth of work to do - but I had a meting around 9:30ish - and I still had one more hour of solid work to do - as the client expected a delivery date the next day at 10AM.

So, oh , yea, the night before that night - I managed to stay awake all night, I forget what it was that we did, I know, oh yea, Well, its longer than that - first of all Sbarros is the Premier Pizza restaurant everest that there can be. So, Instead of eating Sbarros which is a sure bet in the States, we went to Itallian Villageo for a dinner meeting and we took two pizzas. New York Style large slices, I had not eaten all day, and was sick - so I Was starving, I consumed three slices nearly immediately, and Ammar consumed 3 as well (thats normal for him) what is more normal for me, is to have two slices, wait an hour and have two more at home with Fatima, but I Was TOO hungry, so I ate it for sure. somehow or the other I did not come home until 12, wait, a minute - the same thing happened the night before as well, except I forget now, its all been a daze, but somehow or the other I Have been not able to come home until 12 or 1 the last three nights. So, I am exhausted, and I KNOW I WILL fall asleep - right? But no, somehow each night, and I am still trying to remember the first night of these last three what happened. I recall watching a movie, OH YEA!!! I remember now - I have been craving, I mean CRAVING, I mean craving to watch the GodFather, Part Two, but since I had not seen The Untouchables, (can you believe how rotten I really am? All I do is eat, sleep, pretend to work, and watch movies, I watch an UNBELIVABLE amount of movies now, I think its all out of my system, but since DVDS are like a JD in Jordan, its too tempting to buy like 5-6 of them at a time, and there really isn’t that many places to eat here, like the way you have in a place like Houston, so my number one source of entertainment [oh and eating out is mad expensive here anyway] which is to eat out, just does not provide the entertainment value that it should, well that and not having a car. I CAN NOT BELIEVE, I CAN NOT BELIEVE I somehow managed to go through 4 cars, one of my moms and one of Fatimas and am still living without a Car. I wish I had a car (note: Ammi, this is a joke, I am not serious here I am not complaining about the fact that I do not have a car, its a joke I made up for myself a long time ago, and its just a joke thats harmless) - but wait, so no car, not to many choices of eating out, and being ridiculously expensive, and not being able to drive and having to wait for a taxi has left me with two things to amuse myself.

You know what, this whole blog post just sucks! I was going somewhere with all of this, and it was fun when I started, but now I forget where I was going with it - oh yea,

I can’t sleep! Somehow I managed to only get 10 hours of sleep in 3 days, and even today I won’t be home until late, and even tomorrow I won’t be home until late, and even the day after, and I still did not finish the one hour task that I have to do, and even beyond that, my boss told me to give it to someone else to do, and now its become a 10 minute job (just explain it to the other person), and it wil get done.

Wait, ok wait, I keep forgetting that my parents READ THIS. First of all, again, no do not worry, I am not slacking off, and my co-workers and my boss is happy with me, I am again, just stretching things - man ! My whole blog is thrown off if I can’t exaggerate,  Do you know I get calls from my mom so many times because she takes it seriosly! (im not mad dont worry), but i dont want you guys to worry -

Lets scratch all of that, I just can’t sleep, but YES, I am doing everything and not slacking, and not giving my jobs to other people and Ammar is ok with me, and I am not ‘abusing’ Fatima, and I am drinking milk (sometimes), and I am down to just one pack a day, so don’t worry, I am just talking because its fun to write - so please do not worry.

I guess these days, I am trying to be careful more so about what I say and who I say it to, part of being a better Sas is not stressing your parents out, right?

Oh yea, So for three days, no matter how late I come home, I do not sleep until AFTER fajr, and within 2-3 hours grudgingly go to work (and, no I do not sleep at work but I do HAHA) I made that part in gray so my mom won’t see it, HAHA. Lets see if you get it mom, lol - (seriously, mom, don’t worry, PLEASE) -

Ok, so back to what I was/am trying to say. I hope I hope I hope I sleep tonight, the great thing is I literally have nothing to do tomorrow (except the one hour of work), so since there is no stress, I should be able to sleep - right? We shall see.

Bottom line is, I don’t like to sleep in the 24 hour system that we have, I prefer 20 hours of wake, and 10 hours of sleep - I do sleep with this pattern roughly, maybe I am just like a highly evolved human being so therefore I need more wake time, AND I need more sleep time) I to be completely honest do actually believe that last line. Its probably just some super human ability and, Again - I am not sure what this blog was suppose to be about -

I am going to ENJOY ENJOY, I mean SO SO enjoy ahot cup of tea and sleep tonight. Of course the room I Will be sleeping in will be FREEZING, and the shower will be HORRIBLE in the morning - I am So So Hungry right now. Today, All I ate was:  A Banana and a Grape Fruit, and coffee and water.

Sas

Ok, I eat Fool all of the time now, I am sick of Felafels (not sick of them, but i just never eat them anymore, all oily and what not), and I never feel able to bring myself to eating breakfast at home.

So When I come to work, and I feel oh so hungry. I eat some Fool. Also, its not bad, its only 30 qirsh like 42 cents, so you eat it and your kinda happy.

Thins are wickedly better. Only one problem now - but time will solve that as well -

Sas