IN Digestion

I looked out this morning and the sun was gone
Turned on some music to start my day
I lost myself in a familiar song
I closed my eyes and I slipped away

Its more than a feeling, when I hear that old song they used to play (more than a feeling)
I begin dreaming (more than a feeling)
till I see marianne walk away
I see my marianne walkin away

So many people have come and gone
Their faces fade as the years go by
Yet I still recall as I wander on
As clear as the sun in the summer sky

Its more than a feeling, when I hear that old song they used to play (more than a feeling)
I begin dreaming (more than a feeling)
till I see marianne walk away
I see my marianne walkin away

When Im tired and thinking cold
I hide in my music, forget the day
And dream of a girl I used to know
I closed my eyes and she slipped away
She slipped awa y. she slipped away.

Its more than a feeling, when I hear that old song they used to play (more than a feeling)
I begin dreaming (more than a feeling)
till I see marianne walk away
I see my marianne walkin away

Serisouly, LIve Writer just kicks BUTT. We had our first ‘pilot’ show yesterday - it is SO easy. I can’t believe we will just get paid to ‘talk’ - WHAT IS UP WITH THAT!

Sas

I looked out this morning and the sun was gone
Turned on some music to start my day
I lost myself in a familiar song
I closed my eyes and I slipped away

Ok, so firstly, because of this thread, I made a while back - which is really intended to my friends, yes those of you whom I HATE TO DEATH (no, just kidding). No, but really in my ideal world - ALL of my friends, which probably now can be counted on a single hand, and ALL of my family (even the ones I don’t know too well) would come live in Jordan. As I approach old age, I am finding myself inclined towards just being a homely grandfather type of person - I want to just relax, drink some tea, make some food, and sit back and hear the ‘news’ around me. So, this is the goal: It MUST, it WILL happen. Of course, there are so many obstacles to this. I do not feel like moving back to the states yet, not after having just moved to Jordan and spending a small fortune on getting life started here (furniture, and very soon a car [make that this SUNDAY]) so the next best alternative is that they all come to me. Of course, there are other problems.  I do not have kids, I have step kids. And within a few years, they will go back to the states and live with their Father, (which of course is completely fine, except the whole America thing). But, I HAVE NO KIDS. (again, I am not so sure that I really want them, I only want to be involved at a fatherly level in the beginning states when they are babies, and their mother takes care of them) - and in the end when they are adults (19 is good enough) when you can actually have a conversation with them as some what of an equal and give them advice, or things that they can actually do. In the middle time, too much time is spent showing them how to do things. (Like, here this is how you learn how to do x, y and z). So maybe, just maybe its about time to get something going with the whole kid thing. But again, chances are, I Am medically INALLOWED to have them. Which works out for me, for now, but again, more problems., I HAVE NO SIBLINGS. NONE, ZILCH! No body. So no kids to play with when I am old & NO NEPHEWS AND NIECES, and ILL BE IN JORDAN OR SOMETHING so no bonds to make with FAMILIES!. So, I have a solution for that too - After I retire, I MUST adopt some kids, and make them have kids so I have kids to be around when I am older. So that’s the great plan for now.

In the mean time, retirement, retirement, retirement - how BADLY I want to, and how soon is it really away. Hopefully, HOPEFULLY, just a few more months. But two huge huge thorns in that. I find it hard to leave any company, period - so I kinda have to stick around until I am fired. It seems my current boss will never fire me. We had a huge HUGE fight the last few days, and now I have 15% less hours, and im still hired, and I still have same pay!. They brought in a new manager who changed policies to try and get around my loop holes. For 2 months it did not work, my salary was decreased officially heavily (and compensated unofficially) - and on the first glimmerings of hope that maybe, it was working - the policy was changed for me, again. So that it becomes near impossible for me to receive any deductions. SO, this company does not plan to fire me any time soon.

Also, I took on another job - I was offered a job that doubles my salary! - and I like the company and the work I will be doing for them and its in my off time from my first job,

Ok, so you see, all of the above that was written - was written a few weeks ago? (days ago?). But, lets get down to business and break it down. Firstly, ok you know what I DO NOT HAVE TIME to do this right now and today.

So Ill give a recap, and then comment on everything later.

One, someone whom I do not know is making Hijrah because of this thread I made a long time ago:

http://talk.islamicnetwork.com/showthread.php?t=14500

They are COMING over and will be here in 7 days! WTF!!! Thats amazing. (his airpland and his wifies arrives in april 2nd!).

they will stay with us, until they establish themselves and what not. Thats FREAKING COOL. He responded immediately to the thread, quit his job within 1 month, and bought tickets all just like this. WICKED. (and we dont even know each other!).

Secondly, Fatima and I are going to be doing a pilot episode in one or two days for a Radio Station here in Jordan. We will be on the radio with our own show once a week. And its all based upon our personalities. If it works, (and everyone around us who pushed it and made it all possible firmly believe that it will) we will be mini celebrities in the middle east. Invited to conferences, speeches, and press events all the time. (not to mention, we get paid just to talk!). A Whole marketing campaign will launch soon all about ‘our show’

I AM BUYING A CAR!!! - *Thanks to My Dad and Fatimas Dad and Mr. Swaiseh *

Ok, first of all, if not using Live Writer, I find it darn near impossible to blog - some really cool things are happening. Firstly, for the first time in my life since maybe being the age of 9. I can actually (without faking it) go to sleep, AND wake up on my own. I have been reliant upon a bunch of fake methods to do it - but now regardless of how I feel or do not feel, or the surroundings around me - I tend to go to bed at a reasonable time, and manage to wake up ALL ON MY OWN. !

So now, I have time to actually sit down (and want to) write something worth writing. So, what am I going to write about? I am still not sure, I guess I have thousand and one ideas always running around in my head, and never want to just say it - I wish there was a better way then this (but this is the best one I have for now!), well that is, until maybe I am a BIG, ah nevermind I lost the drive already!

(note to myself: write about Mujahid (the name) next time I write.)

(he’s coming to JORDAN!).

Sas

Got it, a ‘cool’ pic of my mom as Promised - However, it may be only cool to me - I miss my family

Sun’s in your eyes
The heat is in your hair
They seem to hate you
Because you are there
And I need a friend
Oh, oh, I need a friend
To make me happy
I don’t stand here on my own

No need to run and hide
It’s a wonderful, wonderful life
No need to laugh and cry
It’s a wonderful, wonderful life

Things move a little too fast -

Ok, its like the older I get, the fewer good days / good weeks I have. I do not have them anymore. I so SO SO hate having to do anything (I left school with a straight 90’s two more semesters to go, just cause I was a bit sad that day).

So, like, I DID not goto work on time AT ALL this month, in fact, we are penalized for each hour we miss. So I only earned half of my salary. BUT, my boss / partner of the company also, personally paid me the remainder of my salary (hes done this two months in a row) I Have no idea how I find really good bosses (two of them helped me buy cars when I could not get to work on time, it looks like this might be happening now also). (not that having a car ever helped, but hey, whos to complain!, and whats not to say, and what not).

So, yuck, ok I had a good day, lets put it that way, my body just started itching.. anyway - 3 months 3 months away from my self described date of retirement - I have been working on 2 projects at once. Both kinda help / develop off each other., ok the itching is just too much i have to stop. But, I feel very good. And I ate AN APPLE today also. (I WAS LATE 4 hours to work today, I woke up on time, i just rather lie there and not come for a while, but I JUST did a MAC DADDY launch right now).

Sas

Chorus: I wanna b with you I wanna b with you baby Yeah baby Vers: I wanna b with you ’cause my love is true There’s so many things that i wanna do I wanna b with you every night and day Oh baby oh baby please stay Rap 1: What’s up what’s wrong? Don’t stop loving me ’cause my love is very deep And i know what you need What can i do to fulfill your dreams? I wanna b with you No matter what you do so come on Give what i need Hit hit i get straight with it ’cause when i see you girl You know you make me go wicked Back to the point and you know me be movin’ I wanna be with you ’cause My heart is still groovin’ Rap 2: Girlie girlie tell me What you want from me So deep in love baby can’t you see I wanna hear Some lovely words from you Come baby come Say i wanna be with you I wanna be with you You wanna be with me girl well just come here The love i got will be right here I wanna make you weak in every way ’cause the love i give you walk this way

Fall is here, hear the yell
back to school, ring the bell
brand new shoes, walking blues
climb the fence, books and pens
I can tell that we’re going to be friends

Walk with me, Suzy Lee
through the park and by the tree
we will rest upon the ground
and look at all the bugs we found
then safely walk to school
without a sound

Well here we are, no one else
we walked to school all by ourselves
there’s dirt on our uniforms
from chasing all the ants and worms
we clean up and now its time to learn

Numbers, letters, learn to spell
nouns, and books, and show and tell
at playtime we will throw the ball
back to class, through the hall
teacher marks our height
against the wall

And we don’t notice any time pass
we don’t notice anything
we sit side by side in every class
teacher thinks that I sound funny
but she likes the way you sing

Tonight I’ll dream while in my bed
when silly thoughts go through my head
about the bugs and alphabet
and when I wake tomorrow I’ll bet
that you and I will walk together again
cause I can tell that we’re going to be friends