IN Digestion

Ok - so, my stomach hurts, and I shall tell you why - for about two weeks, (mostly because of twisted hours and INANE amounts of money being shuffled around) (I still have no bank account here, so even when I want to spend money that I have, I can not as its in my friends account, not to mention, its the only way to get me to stop buying IMPULSE expensive items), I ate nothing but bad foods.

Basically, for example, imagine this. You wake up, and do not have enough time for breakfast, so you think to yourself, ok, today this will be it. this will be the day, I fix my habbits, I will ’semi-fast’ meaning, only drinking water, juices and ill eat fruits and veggies at the afternoon, or when I come back home. Well, if I am served anything remotely healthy, it works like this, I place it and eat it at the end, (I JUST do not like them at all, and I do not want to ruin a nice yummy food with things which are not going to do them justice), so I plan to eat them at the end, this goes with anything even things such as Shewarma. For example, lets say, I am eating shewarma, I will leave all the healthy stuff on it until the end - if I eat with someone, a friend or a family memmber, (since I am also a slow eater), by the time I am done - and since everyone else eats proportiaintely and togetherly, they will have been mixing the main item in bites with the healthy stuff. So since I wait until the end everyone assums, either I do not eat them so they are free to eat mine, of its a general plate, since I am not taking bites along with it, they have it all finished by the time I am ready to eat, so basically for 2 weeks, I HAD NOTHING. And on top of this, each day I did a semi starve / fast planning to basically have nothing in my stomach which is better then gut wrenching felafaels, cheese, frenfh fries, and what not (thats all that can be had close to home), so - each of those days, since I was already in pain AND hungry, each day, i probably ended up eating pizza or felafaels depending on what everyone else was having.

Then on top of that since I by definteion ‘work’ feel each day I should have fun when I come home, so after coming home starving, since I am kinda fasting, since I want to ‘celebrate’ he fact I actually worked (You have no idea how LITTLE i work sometimes, today, i have pretty much spent the better time of my work day figuring out how to add a beatles song to my blog). and even that is an accomplishment, so I am ready to celebrate - so if I come home HUNGRY, i want something yummy, and not healthy, so Ill always try to somehow find a pizza or something fried. Well my friends, ALL of that stopped last night. Last day, I decided thats it, I am going to KEEP so many fruits and veggies at home that this eveyrone else getting to it before me thing WILL NOT happen anymore.

So for breakfast, I ate: 1. a Boiled Egg, 2. A glass of milk (I am obligated by my mom to drink a cup a day), and I had an apple, not so shabbby, not so shabby, oh wait, TWO boiled eggs - so already on my way to work, I was feeling, damn, I did it. So on to the rest of the day, this is the main reason around 8 my boss asks me if i want pizza.. I Said, i really should not…. but ok why not. the pizza came around 9:45 somehow, I left around 9 so I missed it, perfect. So now here is the opportunity, I got home, and I ate something I forget what, but it was somewhat healthy.

Then day 2: (or was it all one day), I came home again after successfully not giving in to my hunger even though I WAS HUNGRY. I came in and it was PERFECT, see, I normally don’t come home at any rgular time, so i came home mostly because i was sick of work, and wanted out (by sick, I mean, i was just sick of doing nothing, i never et anything done after 7 usually, but i am OBLIGATED to stay until 9, and i Have to work from 3-9 instead of 8 to 5, so I am not seen by some very pesky people.) so, I walked in at 9:5, just as fatima pulled out some baked chicken and bread and rice.

WITH A HUGE plate of Salad and also keep in mind, i successfully ate the last 24 hours, so my motivaiton was up (im all or nothing, if i mess up, id not even bother trying to fix), so its all just there, salad, chicken and rice) and bread. Since I hate bread with chicken of anyt kind and even though its baked, I made it into a desi meal with lots of rice and shorba and yoghurt. So I ate.

And I ate again, but I ATE A LOT of salad, and i felt good. So then i walked down to the local store to buy some water, we need an additional tank to ensure we do not ever spend one day withotu drinking water, (we have 3 right now) but in the summe ri guess we go through 4 a week, how I HAVE NO idea, but considering each time I make tea, I make enough for 5 even though there is only 2 of us, and we only drinlk 2 cups, thats MIGHT be the reason we run out of water (I have to learn how to stop this, its just depressin seeing a small pit of boiling water though), so i walked down to the store. And I see for the first time in MONTHS, fine, powedy whole grain flour - now youy have to know something. For the past 4 months, I keep mistakingly buying medium coarse flower (wheat) and have no idea what to do with it or HOW, I tried making parathas out of it, it was SO bad. So i saw the flour and HAD to get it on top of the mango juice. The store was out of my brand of cigarettes, and good riddance anyway (I Am successfully breaking the habit slowly, i am now down to 9 cigarettes offically a day (and about 20 if you could how many i steal from others at work, not to bad, not to bad). Note, I don’t really actually want to quit i have no desire to, BUt i figured if I can stop buying a pack a day,  ic an just buy a wide screen tv at the end of the year and get over myself already - note, in jordan even with alot of money, yo ujust don’t want to put in a wide screen tv, its just to problematic, also considering, i dont want anyone else in my home wathing tv except myself, thats not really a nice thing to do but we can talk about that another day. Listen, so I came and I saw the BROWN thing flour, after trying to hard to understand how i can name it in the future in arabic, and trying to figure that out, i decided tomorrow for sure, I will eat paratha WITh baked chikcen left over) -

Of course, to eat healthy you have to wake up healthy to. I was going to, but again, having bosses who WILL NOT fire you no matter what you do or not do, and lets say one of your bosses threatens you and another boss says (knowing he should not say, that sas, there is no way in hell, you  will ever be let go, and knowing you can get a job and pull another scam for a few months before anyone will catch on) i manage to say, since yes, I will wake up on time and eat healthy, I will sleep tonight. Luckily, I was also sleepy, so I went to bed. Note, I have had two movies sitting around for twenty forevers, Pinnochio and Citizen Kane, and I am just waiting for one day to actually feel like watching them, i simply do not want to, so they just end up staying waiting to be seen. so I went to bed early, woke up early - Told fatima to goto her class (on the premise that ok, you goto class, im gonna get some more sleep, BY THE WAY, i have 3 deadlines due by the end of this month, and I am not on track to HIT any of them) (but seriosuly, i will hit them all, is not even funny how easy work is). BUT, somehow after waking up every 30 minutes, to tell myself, ill wake up in 30 more minutes (I was having this amazing dream, I dreamed I owned a restuarant, and I Was running it like the mafia, killing people and what not and making great food) somehow, before I knew it, it was 12 o clock! so -

At 12 o clock, i woke up only to not actually wake up until 12:30 and I took a shower (I have to be at work by 3). Then i decided ok, since the day is gone, no need to worry about salads or fruits or anything, lets eat a yummy meal, I made flour but I tried to make it in a different way, faimta convinced me not to do the whole meat thing in the morning and instead have egg (so now when i get home im gonna make more parathas and do it with chicken) - needless to say, I grabbed 30 jods with me before I left inteneidng to grab a large amount of fruits and veggies, but im hungry, and we shall see if i do or not, so - MAYBE MAYBE MAYBE depending on if I can countrt my bad eating today with some good eating at the end, MAYBE, I will in shaa Allaah in shaa Allaah eat healty two days in a row, and if I do, hey, thats all I really have to do innit.

This is whybeingan adult and being a man sux. As a child in a home, I pretty much have to eat what my mom makes me. Now that I am the husband, I can just tell all my wives and kids/step kids to eat healthy (which they seemingly seem to do) and eat whatever i want whenever i want. You need some kind of discipline and what not to be a a husband, father, etc. But again, my stomach was hurting, but now not soo much since i decided after my 2pm breakfast (thats how long it took until everything was ready cauyse the dough should sit for an hour), I can now fix it all, but i know i still want paratha and chicken when i get home..

Sas