IN Digestion

I just told Fatima to come and watch… she wants to do something in InDesign and Illustrator

I’ll be visiting Houston, Ohio and NYC for sure almost. The pizza in Ohio isn’t all that great, but there is ‘Flying Pizza’ NYC, TONS of wicked Pizza by the Slice Places, and Houston, well you got Pizza Hut and Papa Johns!

Sas

This song is a special song.

And even though the moment passed me by
I still can’t turn away
Cause all the dreams you never thought you’d lose
Got tossed along the way

And letters that you never meant to send
Get lost or thrown away
And now we’re grown up orphans
That never knew their names
We don’t belong to no one
That’s a shame
But if you could hide beside me
Maybe for a while
And I won’t tell no one your name

And I won’t tell em your name

Scars are souvenirs you never lose
The past is never far
Did you lose yourself somewhere out there
Did you get to be a star
And don’t it make you sad to know that life
Is more than who we are

You grew up way too fast
And now there’s nothing to believe
And reruns all become our history
A tired song keeps playing on a tired radio
And I won’t tell no one your name
And I won’t tell em your name

I think about you all the time
But I don’t need the same
It’s lonely where you are come back down
And I won’t tell em your name

The words are not so important, but its one of the first songs I heard in my life in that Movie, mannequin. It just has this nice pleasing tone throughout

Looking in your eyes I see a paradise
This world that Ive found
Is too good to be true
Standing here beside you
Want so much to give you
This love in my heart that Im feeling for you

Let em say were crazy, I dont care about that
Put your hand in my hand baby
Dont ever look back
Let the world around us just fall apart
Baby we can make it if were heart to heart

Chorus:
And we can build this dream together
Standing strong forever
Nothings gonna stop us now
And if this world runs out of lovers
Well still have each other
Nothings gonna stop us, nothings gonna stop us now

Im so glad I found you
Im not gonna lose you
Whatever it takes I will stay here with you
Take it to the good times
See it through the bad times
Whatever it takes is what Im gonna do

Let em say were crazy, what do they know
Put your arms around me baby
Dont ever let go
Let the world around us just fall apart
Baby we can make it if were heart to heart

And we can build this dream together
Standing strong forever
Nothings gonna stop us now
And if this world runs out of lovers
Well still have each other
Nothings gonna stop us, nothings gonna stop us

Ooh, all that I need is you
All that I ever need
And all that I want to do
Is hold you forever, ever and ever, hey

(guitar solo)
And we can build this dream together
Standing strong forever
Nothings gonna stop us now
And if this world runs out of lovers
Well still have each other
Nothings gonna stop us
Nothings gonna stop us, whoa
Nothings gonna stop us now, oh no

Hey baby, I know, hey baby, nothings gonna stop us
Hey baby, woo, nothing, hey baby
Nothings gonna stop us now yeah

I kinda felt I understood most every aspect of my life, why I did what what I did, and how I fit into the bigger picture of my own life. These days, I am not confused so much about it, I, well arguably I never really wanted to do what I ‘had’ or ’should’ do - but now, its even more so. I am interestingly finding very little peace in my state. Sufism is definitely not the cure for me, I don’t want to be a ‘walee’, or spend the years conditioning myself until I just eat, breathe and think about God. Maybe, I am a firm believer in it but either way, if there is any truth and reality to it, then over the span of a life time or less (depending on what Allaah wishes for you), you could become a devotee of God, and nothing else - though that sounds nice, and I suspect most people who immerse themselves into it only come to it to some total amount (maybe not a 100% Ibn Arabi type thing, but maybe a 75% old worshipping man), it still leaves a good 20-30% of your thoughts thinking about other things and what not. Thinking is like the coolest gift from God we have I think, you can literally live in your own head and make everything around you the way that you want, and while that’s amazingly fun and all, I am finding less contentment in it.

I’ve always been a fan of drugs of any kind, if I was going to be an enlightened person I think I would much prefer the illusion of it then the real kind based upon God, etc.

So, as busy as I am, I think I still have way too much time on my hands…

I am so tired, my stomach hurts, and I have eye gunk in my eyes. I took a fresh HOT showever (water works like a charm now), and Ive been feeling quite betterfor the last 2 days.

I’ll tell you why. I am not that hot in english, secondly, I have my own words with my own meanings applied to them. The number one rule when I talk and/or write is to use the word that I feel should be used for the sake of that feeling that I get in my head (like damn, sas, you can do something!). So, in a country like Jordan where English is not the first language, and English is my second? language (or first), yet everyone talks to each other in formal arrangements many times IN ENGLISH. It means, I am the resident expert on English. It means, I get to teach people English and not even really know what I am talking about. And since I am so believable, people much better at english then I am (lets say Fatima for example), may be hired to write a piece of paper in english, but yet, it still needs the ‘Sas’ stamp of approval before anything can be done, because it is perceived that I just know so so much.

So now I got to write a case study today, it took me all of 5 minutes (and without even checking the facts, or re-reading it or anything), its LIVE!. And, I am ‘appreciated’ for this stuff.

A country like this, if they only had like more frozen pizza options, better quality artificial snacks, cakes, etc. and just a lot more food in general, it would be perfect. But until then, I get to use something I know with total disregard for it, and I get to do less work, because ‘ I am appreciated’ right now, so now its like I did something.

Perrfect

http://www.exotox.com/casestudies.html 

That’s the one I wrote.

I don’t really know of I like Pearl Jam or not, I have never actually listened to any of their songs by own hands, clicks, etc. nor have I ever owned any of their CDs or MP3s. So, I am not sure if I necessarily like them or not, but when they played them on the radio, I think I would listen to this every so now and again. Fatima though LOVES them.

And right now, chewing gum and over all being very nostalgic or sad (not sure either because the external chemicals in my body are confusing my body.

But, I just sat down and immediately in my mind this song started playing, I’m not sure the title or anything but it just sounds so nice in my head and all serene. ‘The words that I can easily identity it with are: Can’t find a better man?

Nice song really

I really have to start being nice to everyone.

Sas

Fall is here, hear the yell
Back to school, ring the bell
Brand new shoes, walking blues
Climb the fence, books and pens
I can tell that we’re going to be friends
I can tell that we’re going to be friends

Walk with me, Susie Lee
Through the park and by the tree
We will rest upon the ground
And look at all the bugs we found
Safely walk to school without a sound
Safely walk to school without a sound

Here we are, no one else
We walked to school all by ourselves
There’s dirt on our uniforms
From chasing all the ants and worms
We clean up and now it’s time to learn
We clean up and now it’s time to learn

Numbers, letters, learn to spell
Nouns and books and show and tell
At playtime we will throw the ball
Back to class, through the hall
Teacher marks our height against the wall
Teacher marks our height against the wall

We don’t notice any time pass
We don’t notice anything
We sit side by side in every class
Teacher thinks that I sound funny
But she likes the way you sing

Tonight I’ll dream while I’m in bed
When silly thoughts go through my head
About the bugs and alphbet
And when I wake tommorow I’ll bet
That you and I will walk together again
I can tell that we’re going to be friends
I can tell that we’re going to be friends

The thing is, I am feeling quite sick today., and I have slept 3 hours in about 56 or 57 hours. And Ive drunk like many cups of coffee.