IN Digestion

And actually wrote out everything (in EXCEL).

According to what I have calculated, if my business totally flops - (that would now mean I have wasted about one hundred and twenty-four thousand dollars all together in my ‘quest for retirement’), and nothing comes of it (highly highly unlikely, but now that its so close to end, too be honest, I just feel like not even bothering (I have lost the ‘drive’ to continue, but for the sake of the fact SO MUCH Money has been put into it, I feel almost like I have to go ahead and finish it). But just to be safe, I calculated based upon the outcome that nothing comes of it, no money is made, and no money is put into it.

According to my calculations, by June of next year (but ill be 26 years old), I can safely retire - of course, I would move back into my parents home - and live with them - its not that big of a deal - because I have enough space to move around, and I would not get my own place if I lived in the states anyway - I am an only child and want to spend the rest of my life living with my parents, or them living with me - but barring any crazy medical expenses (which I suppose would have to ‘bring me out of retirement’, but I have a plan for that as well, well not really - my busines is the only thing that I am counting on for ‘financial emergencies). But whats the point, lets say you save up 1 million dollars, and some crazy thing happens - your gonna blow it all anyway, so I just won’t take that into consideration).

So as of next year, if ‘everything goes as UNPLANNED’, I can still retire.

What this means, basically, since I was 17, I wanted to ‘Learn, Like REALLY Learn’ about Islam. Meaning doing it full time and not having to worry about food, shelter, and having it happen - and not having any responsibility towards anyone else, just so I can give at least one crazy fatwa in my life. (I already have the fatwa itself, but I can’t quite give it until I earn that right) (Before I got religous, I wanted to retire when I was seventeen and dedicate my life towards lounging around and drugs, then one day of course that all changed).

Now, that I am close to the beginning of that particular ‘vision’ - I have no real desire to necesseraily learn Islam either - (but I probably will still dabble into it, obviosuly if you have nothing else to do, you can get super bored really soon).

So what all of this means is that:

1. I will be able to wake up every day.
2. Eat a healthy & yummy breakfast
3. Take a HOT Shower
4. Put on a fresh pair of clothes
5. Sit around and decide what it is I want to do that day
6. Put some work into Islamic Network (when I wish to)
7. Pray 5 times a day
8. Have fun with family and friends
9. Go home (of the fun is happening at home, go to my area of the home).
10. Sleep
11. Eat some very good food
11. Do it again.

(Now even if the business is succesful, thats still pretty much the plan as I have two friends who will take over the day to day operations of the company) - the only thing that will change is my retirement will be in ’style’ - Ill probably buy a lot more things, etc. - but thats about it.

But sleep, responsibities, contracts, and all of that stuff - never again.

And I will also consider it some what of an Islamic Reitrement, because somehow or the other, readership and usage of Isalmic Network and its services, just keeps increasing. Meaning, by sitting here doing nothing, people listen to Quran, and I get the reward hopefully for it, WITHOUT lifting a finger.

Now the only thing I did not factor in my ‘worse case retirement’ scenario is having multiple wives. My retirement will only be able to support myself and Fatima. So the other three wives will have to waive their rights when I marry them.

Best case scenario for retirement, IF and IF, and IF, I can do 3 weeks worh of work ANYTIME in the next few weeks, or months - within 4 weeks after that I will know if I can retire so theoretically, I MIGHT be able to retire in 7 weeks.

Sas

:)

I woke up today again at 3:30 AM.
Prayed Isha
Had a HORRIBLE breakfast (and a horrible dinner at 1:00 AM)

But I feel GREAT (though a bit sleepy).

I was wrong, the kids so do not want to go to Papa Johns. (child abuse REALLY needs to make a come back).

Sas

Today, was A HALL MARK day. Last night I came home around 10ish.
I ate dinner.
I spent a few minutes with Fatima
I went to sleep
I woke up at 3:30 AM (well Fatima woke me), prayed Isha
I took a shower (I used shampoo)
I woke up Fatima
Fatima woke up the Kids
I made breakfast for Fatima (cheese omlette).
I am going to go to work in an Hour, I have not been to work at this time in several weeks
I don’t feel sick
HALL MARK DAY

Sas

Papa Johns in Jordan is quite good, its not near as good as the GREAT Papa Johns in the states, but arguably, its the best pizza experience I have had in Jordan - period.

I made(making) some good money off of it - as soon as I heard Papa Johns was in Jordan, I became instantly happy - beyond happy. Maybe this would be the chance I was looking for, a Pizza Place - that everyone in my family would be excited to go to).

See, Fatima AND the kids pretty much hate pizza, and I pretty much hate anything else you can eat outside, so unlike most households where you can just announce, ‘we are ordering pizza’ and it becomes an instant party, its hard to re-create that feeling - so I have to take extreme measures, sometime I get myself a whole pizza and the kids get burgers - but that means stopping at two places, and it means no DELIVERY.

Papa Johns on the other hand, for some reason everyone likes and gets excited by them, so for now, it will temporarily solve the problem of everyon in my HOME being ’sick’ of Pizza.

Now, as soon as I heard the news, I told everyone -

1. Yazan has said he will take me there.
2. Ammar gave me 20 JOD and told me to keep it and take him there later
3. My Dad said, hes sending me 100 dollars and to take out all of my managers and my friends, in a Pizza Pary (and as an obedient wanna be son, any task I am assigned that is easy to do, 1. recieve money, 2. eat pizza with it) - I am happily obliged to do so.

So Papa Johns has been a good thing so far (and has not cost me much if anything).

Sas

She’s A Mystery To Me Lyrics

(David Evans, Paul Hewson)

Darkness falls and she will take me by the hand
Take me to some twilight land
Where all but love is grey
Where I can’t find my way
Without her as my guide

Night falls I’m cast beneath her spell
Daylight comes our heaven’s turns to hell
Am I left to burn
and burn eternally

She’s a mystery to me
She’s a Mystery Girl
She’s a Mystery Girl

In the night of love words tangled in her hair
Words soon to disappear
A love so sharp it cut like switchblade to my heart
words tearing me apart
She tears again my bleeding heart
I want to run she’s pulling me apart
Fallen angel cries
And I just melt away
She’s a mystery to me
She’s a Mystery Girl
She’s a Mystery Girl
She’s a Mystery Girl

Haunted by her side it’s the darkness in her eyes
That so enslaves me
But if my love is blind then I don’t want to see
She’s a mystery to me

Night falls I’m cast beneath her spell
Daylight comes our heaven’s turns to hell
Am I left to burn
and burn eternally

she’s a mystery to me
She’s a Mystery Girl
She’s a Mystery Girl
She’s a Mystery Girl
She’s a Mystery Girl
She’s a Mystery Girl
She’s a Mystery Girl
She’s a Mystery Girl

It looks like my trip to the states is delayed by a few weeks, which is OK. In the mean time, last week I finally went to the Papa Johns in Amman. Firstly, it is most certainly the best Pizza I have had in Jordan. We have a few non Jordanian Pizza companies here.

1. Pizza Hut
2. Sbarros (My favoritest company ever)
3. Dominoes (its quite not that good here either)
4. Little Ceasers (not that bad in Jordan)
5. And street pizza vendors - they are very bad in Jordan

The Papa Johns is actually a pretty decent experience and close to the taste and what not as back in the states.

The only real other problems are coffee, and Donuts - the donuts here are not that hot. The non jordanian cofees here are not that hot either unfortunately.

However, THEY now have a Caribou Coffee in Amman also. So, this might be quite wicked - however, along with donuts it still poses a problen - what you want is an Abundant Supply of Good Coffee and good doughnuts. You do not want just one or two shops that have them, you want to be able to get the good stuff from a variety of places.

That is still somewhat of a problem -

Sas

Several tweaks have been made to show and present the information in a better manner. After two more main tweaks - then, we start the real HIATUS.

Sas

I really want to bring the responsibilites and what not in my life down, I am REALLY not cut out for work, let alone too much of it. I find a few things genuinely fun and enjoyable to work on. Everything else, I want to weed out.

I am going to give myself until the end of the year, but when I say that, its really quite ridiculous - truthfully, the last 3  years of my lifes work could have been done in just a few weeks if not months!

So, I have about 3 weeks of real work that I want to finish, before I get back to finishing anything else that I want to (namely, just working on IslamicNetwork.com), but I will give myself until the end of the year to finish it -

Its all rather just depressing. So instead of doing anything of real consequence, I just sat around and saw a bunch of episodes of Honey Mooners last night, got into ‘work’ and am just counting the hours until I can go home - (I am so insanely tired from having just watching Simpsons and Honey Mooners all night) OH, but I did do some really fun things. I totally did a LOT of dishes, I made some Dough, I made Paratha (I showed Ibrahim how to make one as well), I ate some Biryani, I ate some friend Chicken and I ate a lot of Watermelons -

Sas

Just 32 minutes before I call home and pick up Fatima and goto PAPA JOHNS!

Sas

Ok, well not really - technically its money I am ’suppose’ to live with for groceries and what not - BUT BUT BUT - first we have to understand some things -

1. Fatima is leaving (with the kids) for America in about 25 days
2. Sas is going to America tommorrow
3. I have been eating well ALL WEEK, well not totally, but not too shabbily either
4. I had NO CASH in my hands, because I sent ALL my jordanian ‘on hand cash’ into my american bank account to buy airline tickets (and I HAVE No real savings).
5. My Friend used my credit card to buy some services
6. So I just realized yesterday that since I am leaving in a day, I should probably you know set aside some cash for the trip and leave some with the family while I myself am gone for 3 weeks before they go
7. Papa JOHNS Just came to AMMAN, PAPA FREAKING JOHNS I am SO SO SO sick and tired of the pizza situation in jordan - firstly, it costs an ARM and a leg - its not something you eat ‘just to eat’ its a fancy meal, its just to freaking much - so I don’t eat pizza that much, but even while saying that I still eat pizza too much, so I am VERY sick of it - but the one thing that gets me into pizza again, is just its mention so look: (even others are excited): http://www.flickr.com/photos/dbjorgen/2437811355/

And listen to today, I ate just an apple, salaf (wait, I did not eat the apple?) just salad, cofee and lots of water today - and i feel quite good and my stomach feels quite good -

Now when I travel (My flight leaves at 11AM tommorrow), I stay awake all night, and I make sure good and ready that I AM SO SO SO sleepy that I can not even stay awake for a 30 minute connecting flight - its beautiful lets say i am going from like ohio to nyc by flight, I WILL FALL asleep even in that - so I do this to make sure I am not bored - and again, I have no iPod, I have no dvd player, and I have no laptop that has crazy battery life, and I am not going to spend 20 JOD on a book written in english - though in the states you can usually pick up a book for like 5-10 bucks on the way to the destination -  So I have nothng to do, and in ALL my life, I have never had one interesting person sit beside me when I am flying - not even once - ever. (oh wait, once I met a really cool pastor of a church who had his own rock and roll church, who was a sculptor, he was ok, we talked about how to better serve christans or something) but im not counting on it, and oh yea on international flights, you meet ‘hippes’ and intellectuals, or foreigeners, both kinds of people that I abhorr.

So now, since I was getting the cash ready, i picked up any cash owed me, and its all in my book bag right now, I FEEL good, and I plan to be up all night - so We will goto Papa Johns, they also opened a Caribou Cofee, if its in the same vicinity then for sure - WASTE a perfectly good amount of money for ‘pizza’ get some more pizza - and get some dvds and go home - and stay up all night eating pizza and watching movies - then goto the airport.

And when i get to america the first thing I am going to do (ONE of my friends better do this for me, i don’t care who you are or are not, somene better buy me a pizza hut pan pizza) - I have officially decided not to buy anything when I am in america except a few laptops for business maybe that’s about it -

So its ALL About the food REALLY this time. Maybe its really sad, but the part I am looking to most (besides my parents, is the food) - i have tried this last year to cook my own food, from scratch - im getting quite able at it, but i want to learn how to make my moms food

So the week that I am in ohio, I am going to learn from her a DISH every night how to make - from biryani to passendei

In shaa Allaah

Sas

Papa JOhns!