IN Digestion

Seriously, I have been in LOVE with this song for ages, I know sometime in the back, I was planning to just post this song up each and every day. I feel dreamy anyway these days (the medication I am on is only HELPING to that effect, LOL).

But seriously, what do you do when you literally live in a dream (By the way, one of the three projects, somehow, somewhere I got it finished, it only took about SEVEN hours, I made my company about $6,000 in seven hours, so I feel quite, eh, not guilty, LOL. – So what do you do if you live in a dream, well for one thing you need a sound track that keeps playing in your head while you dream. I LOVE car rides, but I am a horrible ‘bring along’ in a car ride. Its nice, quiet, either too hot, or too cold, or too perfect – either of those settings being perfect when your just sitting still.

I have literally, I mean LITERALLY been dreaming for about 24 hours straight. Why, because, firstly, I was exhausted at work – the night before I had not slept (the reason being I decided just get it over with, finish the last three episodes of Sopranos up, so I did) – and somehow it turned into Fajr – which then turned into VERY BADLY, I mean SO SO badly wanting to go to sleep. By the way, I now know for sure, that this is my life, this is how I want to do it, no wife, no family, no children, (I want them all, but I mean, I don’t think I can live with these things, no responsibilities, no examples to set, no being careful, not having an impact on anyone, its SO much better and easier for me, so I HAVE to have my own place, I need it, I will DIE without it. I will get it, SOON. But back to the dreams – By morning, I was exhausted and was waiting for it to become 7:30, so I could leave to work. Then, I fell ASLEEP. Exhausted as you are, when you fall asleep because you can not stay up for even a second longer, the dreams kick in, and they are SO SO SO vivid, I mean wickedly vivid – woken up by a phone cal at 9:00 am asking why I am not in at work, or if I am even coming (I was suppose to be in at 8 that morning). So I took a shower, tried my best to scarf down something and went to work – No real work to do, so Every half hour, I would go to the bathroom and sleep in the floor for fifteen minutes at a time. Each of those times, (as I was trying to stay awake, while just laying there with my eyes closed, dreams, day dreams, wonderful dreams – the BEST dreams. Then, I figured, ok when I get home, I am going to sleep RIGHT after Isha, and between ‘asr and maghrib as well. (If I miss a day of sleep, a regular 8 hour sleep won’t cut it for me). So, I was planning to put in 12 or so hours or so of sleep. A long story made short, and lots of time later, and a couple of pizzas too {oh, I am going to be on TV tomorrow) – I went to bed at 1AM. And I could not sleep. I took sleeping pills (now remember my body is exhausted, and again, I have to be IN at work by 8, and I can not sleep, and I just took sleeping pills, then I began battling myself to stay awake again, so again, somewhere somehow along the way, one hour of lying there with DAY DREAMS, and then the sleep kicks in by itself, and the NIGHT dreams begin. WICKED. Now this is like a LOT of hours of dreams right in a row – so now, I come into work, I look fresh, but again, if I don’t put in 12 or so hours after missing a night, I FEEL exhausted, I AM DEAD tired, DEAD tired, BUT, voila since I did sleep some, I can muscle my way through half of the day, and UNKNOWNST to me, there is an Afternoon meeting close to Zarqa. That means, a HOT car, with me in the back for 30 minutes one way, a meeting that I don’t even have to say a word in, and a HOT car ride back, and its already time to go home. Needless to say, I had very nice day dreams while very hot and sweaty (I actually like that sometimes) both ways. Then After getting into the office, I am BURNING hot, BUT – the AC is on, BUT ITS STILL TO HOT, and I am here for a half hour more until my friend gets here to pick me up. So, (since I HAVE LONG HAIR ALHAMDUILLAH [ I am so glad I am not bald, my hair is my life ] ) I SOAKED IT, so it would keep me awake, and keep me cool, and I’ve just been sitting here smiling, dreaming and this song keeps playing as the SOUND track to my dreams. (Now the lyrics as beautiful as they are, are not the dreamy part, its actually the way its sung and the way that it sounds that contributes heavily to the dreamy way of it). Also, you guys have NO IDEA how wicked and beautiful and what not these dreams were, when I retire, I am just going to sit around dreaming until death in shaa Allaah, and I WILL NEVER SLEEP until exhaustation overtakes me, I hate this sleeping thing where you get in bed, just because you are tired. Sleep should be, when you CAN NOT keep your eyes open. And you should only wake, when you can’t keep your eyes closed anymore (it takes about 16 hours for me, but alas, prayer, so I can’t do that anymore) but in Jannah in shaa Allaah. In Jannah.

Oh my life is changing everyday
Every possible way
Though my dreams, it’s never quite as it seems
Never quite as it seems

I know I felt like this before
But now I’m feeling it even more
Because it came from you

Then I open up and see
The person fumbling here is me
A different way to be

I want more, impossible to ignore
Impossible to ignore
They’ll come true, impossible not to do
Impossible not to do

Now I tell you openly
You have my heart so don’t hurt me
For what I couldn’t find

Talk to me amazing mind
So understanding and so kind
You’re everything to me

Oh my life is changing everyday
Every possible way
Though my dreams, it’s never quite as it seems
’cause you’re a dream to me
Dream to me