(One of my most favorite songs, and RARELY played, or listened to, only on very rare occasions, its a BIG deal to me).
Today is the greatest
Day I ve ever kown
Cant live for tomorrow
Tomorrows much too long
I burn my eyes out
Before I get out
I wanted more
Than life could ever grant
Bored by the chore
Of saving face
Today is the greatest
Day I have ever known
Cant wait for tomorrow
I might not have that long
Ill tear my heart out
Before I get out
Pink ribbon scars
That never forget
Ive tried so hard
To cleanse these regrets
My angel wings
Were bruised and restrained
My belly stings
Today is
Today is
Today is
The greatest day
That I have ever known
I want to turn you on
I want to turn you round
I want to turn you on
I want to turn you
Today is the greatest
Today is the greatest day
Today is the greatest day
That I have ever known
The Day Fatima did not Leave Me
I am not a celebratory or festive person (I usually forget my own birthday, let alone remember anyone elses), I mean to some it seems that I am, maybe easily excitable is a better way to describe me - but today, in the morning I found out that Fatima is NOT going to Divorce me., and its the only time in my life I have ever wanted to celebrate anything - and I can breathe a sigh of relief. Shes not leaving me!
You have to understand something, there is no real reason that she should stay - I am a HORRIBLE husband, and pretty much any thing you can think of that you SHOULD not do, I have done - and even that she has always forgiven me for. But in the last few weeks, I have hurt her like no person can hurt any one person, period. Forget having an Affair, or cheating on her, or being an abusive alcoholic - worse than any of those things. And I was literally scared to death that she would leave me, and I know she seriously considered it and almost went for it - but in the end, she stayed because she loves me, for no other reason. Today is the greatest day of my life, more important to me then my birthday, the actual date of our marriage or any other day (i say past, because I do not plan to be so anymore, even though Fatima has not asked me to change any one thing except one thing - and that is to Join the Sufi Shadili Tariqa). But basically from this day onwards I am making some severe changes to give my wife, someone I love to death, everything that she wants from me. (She really doesn’t want that much, but I Have about 4 or 5 years of damage that I want to undo).
And to be honest, I actually want to do it, I am looking forward to it and this is going to be the day that I celebrate into the future.
Thank You for EVERYTHING. I love you,
Sas
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July 24th, 2008 at 9:06 pm
Poooooorrr Fatimah! I know sas well. I have psycho-analyzed him on several occassions and have concluded that he is not marriageable material. I feel sorry for a woman that falls in love with sas, for more reasons that I can name here. Of course I feel sorry for a woman who falls in love with almost any man lol. We may say we care, but in reality, deep down - deep inside - sas doesn’t care. He will push the envelope until it can’t be pushed anymore…
I miss the dude and hope that he will change for the “better” - whatever the hell that means lol.
July 24th, 2008 at 9:09 pm
ya know sas, im shocked you have lasted this long man. Well I am shocked I have lasted this long too. I am just a shocked guy!
July 29th, 2008 at 12:37 pm
Sas you are an inspiration! How could my wife put up with me 17 years!??!?
August 18th, 2008 at 4:15 am
abul layth, i agree to an extent - i dont feel sorry for women who fall in love with sas (there are a lot apparently) - sas is a fun guy to love - i feel sorry for the ones that stay with him for any period of time
you know, there is no point wasting brain power on figuring out who/what someone is when they dont even know who they are; i figured out who i was when i was about 17, but some people take longer
and well, when one of the spouses does whatever the hell they want all the time, its easy to “last” - its more a question of how long the other spouse can last
finally, about “changes for the better” - everyone has a different idea of what is better, right - so no one should get anyone else to change because then its not real or you just end up being a babysitter
jazaakallaahu khayran for the sympathy akhi and a shout out to all the wives of the shocked guys
August 18th, 2008 at 8:59 am
and i just realized bro yousef made the same point earlier