IN Digestion

Remember the good times that we had?
I let them slip away from us when things got bad
How clearly I first saw you smilin’ in the sun
Wanna feel your warmth upon me, I wanna be the one

My dad called yesterday and my friend was there to pick up the phone, I was asleep. I wish I had been awake, but I was incredibly tired and happy to be asleep. I had another gay encounter yesterday, but I won’t go into any details except to say it was most freaky.

I am not sure which one I like better. The original by the Beatles or the Cover by Mr. Vedder and Co.

I rarely post song lyrics of anything from Pink Floyd, but they have been my favorite band for like ever. I think I shall post some up on this blog post. This week there have been UNBELIEVABLE amounts of references to this song. The thing is the songs I REALLY LIKE, I mean REALLY like, I like them SOO much, that I don’t tell ANYONE about them - I don’t want ANYONE to know about them - BUT THIS song, is one of those SONGS I REALLY LIKE, but, I HAVE NO problem sharing.

(I have no idea what it means or anything, but its cool as heck none the less).

Hello.
Is there anybody in there?
Just nod if you can hear me.
Is there anyone home?

Come on, now.
I hear youre feeling down.
Well I can ease your pain,
Get you on your feet again.

Relax.
I need some information first.
Just the basic facts:
Can you show me where it hurts?

There is no pain, you are receding.
A distant ships smoke on the horizon.
You are only coming through in waves.
Your lips move but I cant hear what youre sayin.
When I was a child I had a fever.
My hands felt just like two balloons.
Now I got that feeling once again.
I cant explain, you would not understand.
This is not how I am.
I have become comfortably numb.

Ok.
Just a little pinprick. [ping]
Therell be no more –aaaaaahhhhh!
But you may feel a little sick.

Can you stand up?
I do believe its working. good.
Thatll keep you going for the show.
Come on its time to go.

There is no pain, you are receding.
A distant ships smoke on the horizon.
You are only coming through in waves.
Your lips move but I cant hear what youre sayin.
When I was a child I caught a fleeting glimpse,
Out of the corner of my eye.
I turned to look but it was gone.
I cannot put my finger on it now.
The child is grown, the dream is gone.
I have become comfortably numb.

is Probably the most peaceful and enjoyable time I have had in a LONG TIME. I can’t go into too many details but basically, I went to see a Doctor (NO, NOT ABOUT CHILDREN, though I get bugged a lot about that too, and in all honesty as much as I want kids, I don’t really want them) - but after a lot of pressure from some friends, I am finally going to the doctor - and I went, but before that I did something REALLY EVIL, but it felt a lot nicer, and I think I am going to have fun AFTER a long time. So BON VOYAGE.

I have 8 months left until I graduate. (for about 3 or 4 years now). I can’t even fathom how much of my parents money AND my own money I have wasted on Education. I hate HATE my supposed degree.
I have launched the FIRST of those 3 EVIL PROJECTS.
(so that means I have TWO EVIL ONES left)
I am buying a car!

And I really REALLY REALLY miss my mother SO much, I am thinking about asking her to come stay with me for a few weeks here in Jordan ( I miss my dad too, but i don’t want him to take time off of work, and all of that stuff ).

And I went to the doctor, and just by going I already feel as if I am cured :), and I did something EVIL. EVIL INDEED. Maybe one of the most evil things I have done in a long time. (its not evil honestly, but god, I hate this ’secrecy’) I have to maintain 20 different standards of secrecy on my blog. My parents read this, some of the people I do business read this, - for example, (I don’t anymore) but lets say its something silly, like having MUSIC on my blog. This would actually take away money from my pocket if seen by one of the persons who reads this blog. You get me. So for now, lets just say this Evil thing its REALLY NOT THAT EVIL. But at the same time it was nice, and I call it evil because well some people would consider it evil -

So enough about that. I Am going to the doctors today! God, I have NEVER in my life been so excited to go to a doctor. EVER. And my god, I got it together, I may actually be retired in the next few weeks!

Remember the good times that we had?
I let them slip away from us when things got bad
How clearly I first saw you smilin’ in the sun
Wanna feel your warmth upon me, I wanna be the one